I told my parents that I had homework on my laptop, so they would actually give me it for a little. I don’t have a lot of time so I apologize in advance- this is going to be poorly written.
Okay so when I went to school I went in with butterflies in my stomach and a positive attitude. Everything was going great, I talked to some people in my classes. And I found out that Eva and Abby were in my classes and Mason’s other friends Rob and Chris that I briefly met at the party. Everything was going great but I couldn’t find Mason anywhere and I was disappointed he wasn’t in any of my classes. And the lunch came. I was planning to just sit with the girls and look around with Mason but I still couldn’t find it and I couldn’t text him because I got my phone taken away again. I asked where he was a couple of times and everybody just looked away and just said “I don’t know”.
Then about half way through lunch after Eva, Abby, and Lacey told me some gossip Amanda comes and stands next to me. She put her elbow on the table and started me in the face. It was really awkward and I was waiting for her to leave but after about 3 minutes I couldn’t take it anymore.
“Can I help you?” I said, it was surprising to hear those words come out of my house because I haven’t been pissed off at anyone in a while.
“Not sure, have you seen hi-”
“And Chris? Slut.” She interrupted me.
“What are you talking about? You’re crazy.”
“Amanda. Please.” Lacey budded in.
“Stay out of it Lacey. Don’t take sides.”
Chris came over and pulled me away. In the halls.
“Fuck. I should have told you…” He said.
“Told me what?” I said both concerned and frightened.
“While you were drunk and dancing, and Amanda was being a clingy bitch to Mason, I came to the party late.” He paused.
I gulped. I didn’t want to know what Mason and Amanda did. I didn’t want to get slapped in the face and have my fantasy and infatuation end so soon.
“I had no idea that you and Mason were together. We shouldn’t have hooked up. I know you don’t remember. But everyone else involved seems to.”
“What?!” I screamed.
“What do you mean what..? Didn’t Mason say something to you?”
“Uh. No- he uh- he wasn’t talked to me. ” tears started coming down my face.
Then the bell ring and I just speed walked to my class. I couldn’t focus at all and it usually would have been embarrassing when I said “I don’t know” to answer questions like “where are you from?” But right now it didn’t even matter.
I snuck out last night when my parents were on date night and I payed my sister to keep her mouth shut. I went to the only place I thought I could find Mason, since I don’t know where he lives. I went to his hiding place. The place where I knew I was in love with him. The place where I fell and he kept me from crashing. But it felt like now he wasn’t there to shelter me from the darkness that had come from that beautiful moment and now a memory.
When I got there I stood in front of the building and I wasn’t sure if I could go up there. I sat of a bench outside and I started making marks in the snow with my boots and started crying. Just when I was getting sleepy-
“This is why I never showed anybody before.” I heard from across the street. There he was with his black Vespa. I’ve never wanted to run up to somebody and hug them so much. But I couldn’t cry in his arms. He wouldn’t hold me.
“I’m sorry.” I said quietly because it felt like the lump in my throat was so big that I couldn’t even speak. So I just walked up across the street.
“I should’ve told you how I really felt. When we were here, it was just you and me, nothing else mattered. No memory influenced that moment and future was irrelevant. Our worlds stopped spinning and went off on a tangent together, while everyone else’s went on. I would never be able to share that with anyone else. I can never relive that moment. We were new and so were the feelings, but the company of your full attentive soul felt so old. That will never happen to me again. And I know that in my whole body because you’re my last first. You’re my last first kiss, my last first hand I hold, my last first love. I love you.” I paused thinking i couldnt go on but i had too. “What I did wasn’t any of that. It wasn’t a true kiss, it wasn’t the comforting attention I had on his soul. It wasn’t you. All I want is you and if you don’t trust me then ill make you. This is so new and I’m so scared. I don’t want to lose you. I will fight for you until the die I can’t do it anymore. I will not listen to you tell me that we cannot be while you listen to my suffering cries because all I know inside of you, is where your suffering cries are. You’re the only thing in my life that could i feel this way about. The only thing that is all mine. And I know you love me ba-”
And once again I was interrupted but it wasn’t my the stinging words but by Masons lips kissing my tears on my lips.
“All I needed was ‘I love you’. I love you too, Andrea.”
I just smiled and cried some more and nodded my head like a doofus and kissed him again and the picked me up and span me around.
“I want to take you somewhere I haven’t shown you yet.”
We rode in his Vespa, a little closer to the city and then turned into a driveway and stopped at a huge baroque gate. He swiped a key card and then it opened. I had no clue what was going on.
“Who lives here?”
“The Whites.” (White is his last name)
“You.. You… Live here?!”
He laughed and introduced me to his housekeeper Linda as she greeted him to the door. He didn’t show me the rest of his house. He said that was for another time. He probably just wanted to get to the point- it would’ve took and hour to get through the while house.
He grabbed my hand and pulled me upstairs to another level. Then we came to another set of stairs and he carried me in his arms and looked at me and smiled and then brought us up the stairs. I couldn’t help but giggle. I felt like a little girl whose dreams of being a princess were coming through.
We came into an eclectic bedroom that didn’t match the rest of the house. The walls were gray and red and there were signed posters of bands and pictures from all around the world next to a map with push pins stuck in it. There were vintage and modern furniture and knickknacks laid on them. There was recording equipment, microphones, amps, and every piece if general instrument you could think of. But before I could really take it all in, he lay me down on the center of the white king size bed that was sticking out of a giant window looking over the city and his garden in the yard. We began kissing as he gently hovered over me and I started unbuttoning his polo. He stopped for a moment and ripped it off over his head and threw it on the ground. His stomach was cut like a modest washed board. We flipped and I went on top of him and he pulled my shirt over my head. He unleashed my bra after a couple of minutes and we flipped again. He started kissing my neck to my collar bones and then done my chest and waist and then gently unbuttoned my jeans. He took off the rest of clothes and moved back up to my inner upper thigh. I pulled on his jeans and unbuttoned them also he paused laughed and looked at me and I started laughing too. He was gone for a minute and I was waiting underneath the covers for him. He came back in the same state as he was before and went under the covers with me and started kissing my neck and down my body again and climbed on top and gently intertwined our bodies as one.
It was incredible, Making love to someone you love so much and you never want to lose is amazing. There’s no way for me to describe it but you’ll have to see for yourself one day. I hope you make the right decision and wait until you love the other one first.
Anyways, it’s hard to shy away from that subject, I could talk about it forever. I’m grounded because I ended getting home at 2am and my parents were up waiting for me.
Today, everything went as I hoped it would go on the first day of school. I just went home and started a new song.
Always and Forever sincere,